|
[Monday] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 jubilant |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
MR. BLAAACK PANTHER PAAARTY! ARE YOU READDDYYY FOR MEH?! |
] |
i cut half of my hair shorter than the other :)
it looks funny
while i was cutting my hair i got the scissors stuck in them
and i think im going to tell the worlddd because its a good story
andddddddddddd
life is pretty amazing
goodnight, moon
|
|
|
[Saturday] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 worried |
] |
ghost is sick. :(
|
|
| we're all stars now in the dope show |
[Saturday] |
im updating. because cena told me to and i slave best obey her mas'a, lest she wants a whipping. wes craven still = fantastic. i went to see red eye with angelina and christina tonighttt and it was fun :)
got a ticket to matteo's band's show in the 30th. should be interestinggg.
celeste is honestly the only person in my family that i would say i like(not really love) and im not just saying thing because im a stupid teenager, i just dont like my family. i dont like my mom as a person and i dont like my dad as a person, theyre just people i live with. other than that, i dont know the rest of my family really so i cant say, but from what i know of them i dont like them either. i feel bad for my mom since she loves me, but thats all she does. she doesnt really bother to try and understand anything at all, she just loves. apparently she never really delt with her problems and celeste says that why she's an alcoholic, her mom was one too and im guessing there were a lot since half of her family is irish and the other half czech.
my dad he just doesnt understand anything at all even if he makes an attempt to he doesnt get it. i know he cares about me too but i dont like him either. you have to trust someone to love them and i sure as hell dont trust him. he has ptsd or pts, i dont know which one is the real name for it, from vietnam and thats the only problem i know he has which is a pretty big problem. people arent meant to kill like that or even see what happens in a war, it scars you for life and changes who you are. i got that 'problem' or whatever you want to call it from him so that basically killed everything.
when i ran away from home and no one knew where i was i was really happy. i dont know for sure why but im guessing its because i didnt have to worry about anything like getting into a stupid fight which always end up going too far since i always fight back. w00t for defiancy.
so i guess i dont really have a family. i dont know how to explain that one, its just something thats been stuck in my mind for a long time now but it doesnt really have an explanation, or at least a good one that makes sense. im sure that if i said this to anyone theyd say something like "well deep down you really care about them blablabla" but no, i really dont. if they died sure i would cry but not out of loss just out of shock. like if you lived with someone your whole life and they died you'd be shocked that theyre actually gone and miss them even if you hated them because your life would change even if it's in the littlest way.
and this is a different thing now, i dont like it how people fake something just so things could be like how they were before even though they know its really not no matter how badly they want it to be. whatever some people confuse me. especially hypocritical ones. yeah yeah everyones hypocritical i know but some are a lot more than others which is who im refering to when i say it because i dont really care if people are slightly hypocritical.
eh i guess ill just stop now and try and sleep or something. enjoy the update christina.
|
|
| and we'll dance like no one is watching, with one fist in the air |
[Thursday] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
jubilant |
] |
fucking borrrrreeedddddd ive been playing pokemon for the past 3 days. im in a really good mood thoughhh wsfjsdkjfjksdfkjf last night anna and i went to the mall and sat on a bench for an hour and half and then kelly cena and elenore showed up. anna brought a boom box. elenore was mad because anna was there or because we were smoking but no one really cared hahaha. at night 3xt danced to mc hammer. i ended up chasing cena as she yelled "I TOLD YOU, YA CANT TOUCH THIS!" hahahaha i love my friends. on a sadder note i did some math and its going to take about 16-20 more months to raise 700 dollars. buh. but who can be sad when they're listening to throwaway style? not i.....not i.
NOW IM GOING TO GO RUN RAMPANT IN THE STREETS AND BE THE ROOT OF SOME CHAOS AND REBELLION.
hahahahaha i amuse myself
im jubilant!
|
|
| rompa rompa rompa HEY HEY |
[Thursday] |
|
so kids i got a live journal. or lj or whatever. woo hoo. anna did the background and stuff because im retarded and dont know what the hell im doing. so. hm hm hm what to write what to write. well..i ran away from home and slept at annas last night and im sleeping here again tonight, might sleep at nickys tomorrow but we got him in trouble because we went places at 12 in the morning when his parents said not to. oh we're such rebels. yeeeaaahhh. today anna and i walked around lomita writing stuff on walls and streetlights. or street lights. i dont know if its one of two words. im bored. annas passed out on her bed. only shes not passed out. blablablaaa. i havent showered in 4 weeks. yum. i guess ill just stop this. its not curing my boredom. the end.
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
im_anupstart's journal